Closure

Nov 26th, 2011 12:00pm

In the midst of the hurt that has stemmed from you, I thank you. Yes, you hurt me. My confidence was shot for a long time. I felt like I wasn’t good enough and would never been good enough for anyone. I questioned my ability to be a good person. I felt broken and unwanted.

But here’s the thing: I never would’ve felt this way if you never made me feel amazing. When things were good, you made me feel wanted. I was someone who you wanted to see. You made me laugh, you made me smile. You made me feel special. I felt something that I had never felt before.

That’s why I’m thankful. I’m thankful that I experienced that special feeling. It’s something I can’t even fully describe. Without this relationship, I would have never felt the hurt which would mean that I would have never felt amazing.

From this, I remember that it is possible for someone to make me feel like I matter; someone that wants me. It happened. I can’t be mad anymore. What’s done is done. You are the one person that’s ever made me feel extremely happy, extremely vulnerable, and extremely hurt within a couple months. So thank you. You fixed my heart when I was in need. Now I will find someone who will fix it again.